2008 - Overcome A Begining.
Well, it seems I haven't had the best time.
I've always believed in peace but I never listened to that famous Gandhi saying "We must be the change we wish to see in the world."
I'm as cynical as they come, I get it from my Grand father.
Going through anything and everything that everyone else goes through.
I can't say i'm feeling great.
Haven't thought straight, thought positive or had a moment to relax in what seems like years. This is all rather melodramatic for someone at my age. So we'll call this a vent.
Trying to escape where I am, jobs are scarce and I can't keep my head above water. I suppose when the world come crumbling there are those of us who can do something about it and do it, those who can do something but won't or don't, then there are those of us who wish we could do something about but can't.
"There's no such word as can't" - However there are two words 'can not' which have the exact meaning.
I need out, I can feel numbness again, it comes crawling like an old dog smelling food, like blood constricting blood vessels disallowing blood flow in a smokers body. cutting of circulation, cutting off dreams, cutting off hopes, cutting off strength, cutting off self-respect, cutting off ambition, cutting off reasoning and cutting off sense.
Like tree branches, the branch starts to die and all the new leaves wilt, fade and fall to be rolled over by push bikes full of laughter of a childhood spent in sweet naivety. Now that time is over and it's time to wake up and see the world, the real world.
If this is real, I don't want to be around to see what it looks like in the day...
- Pura